Friday, March 30, 2012


"At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person.  Each of us has the cause to thank with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us." ~unknown


Your sweet spirit is so present.  Your memories are continuous.  You have to know that even in these saddest of times, because of you there is a new spark in me.  A renewed foundation of faith.  A deeper gratitude for grace. My little chubby cheeked girl, because of your life, even as short as it was, my once darkened flame has been reignited and it burns bright.  I promise to keep it bright and I hope that it is bright enough for you to see if from Heaven.  As tears stream from my face because of the missing, I have to tell you that I would do it over.  I would carry you for 9 months...puking everyday...I would stay up with you all hours of the night.  I would take all the joys even knowing the pain I would soon face from losing you.  You changed me, not just from your death but even more so in your birth.  An amazing child, an amazing gift from our Lord.  We will plant your April's flowers, daisies and sweet peas, to honor you and to remember all the joy you have brought to all of those that love you. Thank you for my rekindled flame.  Kelsie, a little girl who could not even talk yet, has taught me more about myself, more than I could have imagined.  I love you sweet girl, and just know, even as sad as I am, remember I without a doubt do it all over again!  You are amazing, you are my love, my light, my life...Kelsie Sloane!!
All my love~


  1. We too will be planting some sweet peas to celebrate the joy and happiness you brought into this world. I remember last year on April 11th I was so anxious to get that first picture. It wouldn't download on my phone forever!!! When I finally got it I was expecting to see a little girl that had the same features as Dylan but to my surprise she looked just like Jeff from day 1!! So beautiful and unique. I miss getting those sweet pictures on my phone like you wouldn't believe!!! I love you Summer Rae!

  2. Beautiful! Much love my friend1