I am reaching out to expand my community. I will be attending a Christian based grief group for moms on the second Thursday of every month. I am hoping that fellowship with women who have and are going through this type of loss will give me some sort of insight. The Village Church has home groups, I have been praying over the idea of joining a home group. Next Sunday there is a meeting, I am going to go and hope that God will lead me to the right group of people.
I continue to work out and run. I have signed up for several runs to help keep me focused. I am thinking about doing a marathon in the fall. Jeff and I are planning a couple of vacations including a destination wedding that we will be attending in September. We will also be traveling to an island in April. We celebrate our 2 year wedding Anniversary on April 10th and Kelsie's birthday is April 11th. UGH! The thought of April and the months following is causing so much anxiety. I am not sure how I am going to handle having a season of memories to go along with my grief.
Having Dylan has been a huge part of my recovery. My days with him are less sad. I pray for him now more than I ever have. I enjoy so much about him and I am so proud of all he become in just 9 years. I hope that I can always be the mother that he deserves. We will be wrapping up basketball season at the end of Feb and starting baseball season in March.
I continue to fill my calendar just to have things to look forward to. I don't know if that is a good thing but for me it does help so thank you to everyone who helps me fill my calendar.