Tonight, it is hard to sleep. There is joy, an abundance of joy in my soul. I prayed, on my knees prayed for Your amazing power this weekend. I prayed over and over for You to destroy anything that would prevent someone from hearing what I know You wanted to them hear. Oh Father, You did! You answered my prayers and the prayers of so many woman and the cry of one very special mother, who tonight spends her night wrapped in Your eternal blanket of love. You truly do make beautful things from dust. Thank You!
Monday June 18 2012
I started my first day of work this day. Exhausted and stressed, my only desire that night was to go for a run. I put on my headphones and headed out to the pavement to the beat of praise and worship music. The first 3 or 4 songs were Psalms put to music. I could just feel my Spirit was pleased. I am sure I am the funniest looking runner out there. I can not help but throw my hands up and praise Him when I run to praise music. Then as the Jeremy Camp song playes, I know You are Calling, my jog becomes a walk and tears stream from my face. I knew in that moment that it was time to give my story to the Lord. It was time for my idle hands to move again. I did just that. I said "Ok Father, where you lead I will go. I seek You and Your will all the days of my life." I ran for another hour and a half, never tiring. In that run a layer of grief just flaked off piece by piece and I praised Him for His mercies, new everyday. I finally came home, ate some dinner, and grabbed a handful of M&M's and this was the message I received on FB,
Summer,I ofcourse responded with yes. The Lord had prepared me for that message two hours before Susan had even written the message. It gets better, Susan had struggled with asking me for weeks and she felt like the Lord was telling her to wait and then Monday night He said..."Now, beloved, now is the time to ask". God is FAITHFUL!!
I hope you are doing well. I have been so encouraged reading your blogs. Thank you for your honesty and transparency.
I have a question, we are doing our annual retreat on June 29-july1 and as I have been praying about ladies to give their testimonies your name keeps popping up in my head. I don't know if you would be available or even ready to share your testimony but I would love it if you would pray about it and let me know.
I know it is short notice so if you cannot I totally understand.
It would be about 15-20 minutes Saturday morning.
Please pray about this and let me know.
Satuday June 30 2012
After several of the Mom's had given their testimony we divided into our small groups. Oh how the Lord's presence became clearly undeniable. The Lord gave each of the ladies in our group the exact amount of boldness needed, the exact amount of passion needed, the exact amount of His Word, the exact ingredients He knew Jennifer Ortega would need to cry out to Him. To cry out for His salvation, to ask for His forgivness, and to cry for the Lord to become her Savior and for the Lord to reside in her heart. He orchestrated it all so perfeclty. I have never experienced anything so beautiful. After we all prayed and praised the Lord one of the Mothers said "You know your little girl is just rejoicing in Heaven today." Oh and I believe Jesus gathered all our children together for that moment for them to see us and how they must have just rejoiced together in that moment. What a precious gift from the Lord. It is seldom that we see the fruit from the seeds that the Lord gives us to plant. Saturday a room full of broken mothers, with broken praises and broken hearts, our Faithful and True, gave us the gift of His tender mercies. This was the joy that was set before Jesus, this moment is why He endured the cross and scorned it's shame. He sits at the right hand of the throne of God for me, for you, and on Saturday for Jennifer Ortega, a bereaved mother with a broken heart, who has endured a tragedy so dark and so deep that only God can lift the dense fog of darkness and give Jennifer the light she has been searching for all along.
I will bring them into the fire, I will refine them like silver and test them like gold. They will call on my name and I will answer them; I will say, They are my people, and they will say, "The Lord is our God." Zechariah 13:9