Friday, April 20, 2012

Self Doubt

Psalm 35:1
Contend, O Lord, with those who contend with me; fight against those who fight against me. 
Last night before my eyes closed a thought approached me, a very loud abrasive thought.
"Summer all this religion stuff is fake, you are fake and you are a liar" 
I cringed and I remembered this scripture that a friend sent me earlier in the day.  Contend, O Lord, with those who contend with me; fight against those who fight against me.  As my mind wondered into the brink of self doubt I just prayed this scripture over and over until the thought, the self doubt and the guilt of that statement disappeared. 
This morning after I dropped Dylan off, My Hope is in You, came on the radio.  After that song played, I quietly asked the Lord, why, why would these thoughts of self doubt come up?  The whispers came...I love the whispers. 
Summer be thankful for these times of self doubt and be thankful of these trials that you are now facing.  I am God and I am greater, but know that what I have planned for you the enemy does not like it, he hates it, his knuckles are clinched with fiery.  Keep my word close to your heart so that your prayers are strong and forceful.  My Spirit is with you, he will keep you safe, he will keep you protected.
Safe and protected indeed.  I can not tell you nor can I keep count the number of times a day that the Lord has prepared me for the trials of that day.  Be it through conversations with friends, reading blogs of others, my own pull towards God's word, two daisies, a message of hope, an email full of scriptures that I can pray over my family, the prayers of others, a song, oh and the sweet whispers.  People he is Faithful His grace covers me, and this is why, in the storms I will praise Him!


  1. He keeps proving his faithfullness in all of us, it is such a promising and hopeful feeling ! I love you sweet sister!