So many friends and family have said...I wish I could take this pain away, or I wish I could just pray the pain away. Could I make this request?
It's not the pain that anyone has to worry about. The pain, the loss, the missing, it's the reality of a loss. As long as Kelsie is not in my arms the pain is there...even in the later years...the pain exists. To be honest the pain in not my primary fear. My fear is that one day I lose hope, I forget where my hope comes from. Staying in the word, LOVE, JOY, PEACE they all keep leading me back to the simple but yet complex message of the Gospel: "Christ endured the cross for the joy that set before Him" The Cross, the sacrifice, death for me and death for you. I wrestle with God. Lord I know about the cross, I know that Christ died for me. God keeps saying..."you know it, but do you understand the depth of it? Please let me teach you, open your heart to the gospel." My friends, it's in the pain, that the Lord teaches me so much. It's in the pain, the unbearable pain, that I praise Him the loudest. In the tsunami is where I find that I am the most still, I have to be still. It's the time that I let go of myself and allow God to become more. So please don't pray the pain away, pray that I keep fighting the good fight. I learned last week in my bible study that through all the suffering that Paul experienced, he never prayed for God to take Him out of those trials, yet he prayed for strength while enduring them, he praised God for them! Pray like Paul, pray for strength while enduring the trials.
Hebrews 5: 7,8
In the days of His flesh, He offered up both prayers and supplications with loud crying and tears to the One able to save Him from death, and He was heard because of His piety. Although He was a Son, He learned obedience from the things which He suffered.
Christ is Everything!!