In Your Wings

My Redeemer,

Savior please, I fade so fast.  When the days come and the pain last, the distance spreads and our talks become few.  I know it's me, it's not you.  Help me stand when the fall hurts so bad.  It's when  I refuse to be weak, trying so hard to be tough that's when your mercy means so much.  I called upon my Redeemer from the beginning because today my God, it is You my redeemer that I seek, that I long for.  I walk by faith in this darkness and when I loose sight of the very person that is holding me I have to fight my way back some way, some how, back into Your embrace.  My God, I cry just like David's cry in Psalm 57:1-3

Be merciful to me, O God, be merciful to me,

for in you my soul takes refuge;

in the shadow of your wings I will take refuge,

till the storms of destruction pass by.

I cry out to God Most High,

to God who fulfills his purpose for me. 

He will send from heaven and save me;

he will put to shame him who tramples on me. Selah

God will send out his steadfast love and his faithfulness!

I will come back to You, You are my strength, You are my joy.  Without You this life is unbearable.  Time will not pull me away, although at times I may stray...You are my Lord, my Love, my Refuge.  In you I have hope.  Hope for this mother who misses her child so much but still has to love the child she is blessed to still hold.  A wife who must learn to love a whole new way.  I praise you for your absolute known presence in my life day to day.  The prayers answered, the moments of Your love revealed.   I long for the day that you will hold me and I can fall into your embrace and just thank You.  Without You here, this season is unbearable, this hope is gone, and the light is covered by the shadows of darkness.   I am learning to believe that is in Your arms and Your arms only that I can rest, I do not have to prove a thing.

Please remember this prayer when the words do not come as they so often do not.

Yours,

Summer Rae