Tonight I don't want to have to be strong, I want my world to be as I knew it just three Sundays ago. Tonight I don't want to cherish her memories, I want to make more. Tonight I don't want to cry on her pink blanket, I want to hear her cry and wrap her up in her pink blanket. I want my baby back. I long for more than just one more night, I long for the lifetime that I had planned for us!
Adrianna, my beautiful sweet niece, was here this weekend. She said we should just write Jesus a letter and say, Jesus please please please just let us have Kelsie one more night we promise promise we will bring her back Amen.
Tonight I will curl up next to my husband and we will cry together just as we have every night since her death. I am so thankful to have him someone to hold my hand someone to tell me it's not ok tonight but we will someday be ok.