Wednesday, January 4, 2012
When the dawn breaks and my eyes open to this new day that has come, I look down to an empty pink blanket. A tear falls because now the joy, the smell, our time with her is over. I am reminded of her presence all through out my day. I constantly pray and work on focusing on all the joy, the family, the life that I still have but where my heart had once expanded to make room for new life it is now barren. There is nothing that can take it's place or fill it's void. I must find ways to grow beautiful things around this abyss. Her death was too sudden and too unexpected and the time is still too short to even truly know how to exist in this new journey. So for now I remember the joy that just three months ago flowed from the top of my head to the tip of my toes and I cling to the grace and the faith that is my gift. I pray for a better tomorrow and search for seeds to plant so that someday my expanded emptiness, although will always be empty, it might have a beautiful view. Until the day, when my time here is done and I can lay with her once again.
When the dawn breaks and my eyes open to this new place, this amazing place a tear drops from my eye as I look down at the daughter I have missed so much and I kiss her forehead. There is no more hurt, there is no more emptiness, heaven is no longer so far away it is my home and my tears are now tears of joy. For all the loved ones that may out live me, look to the stars, just as I did every night. There I am and the bright light next me is Kelsie's halo and together we shine bright so you all know that once again my cup overfloweth.