Who knew when we said Happy Birthday to you that morning that this would be the only birthday we would ever have. I think about this picture and how that morning for some reason it so important to take this picture. Your Dad was so nervous, we were running late to get to the hospital but I wanted so badly to take this picture. I had so many hopes, so many dreams just for you, my daughter!
These last few days all I have thought about is you, my sweet Kelsie, since the moment I first held you until the last morning I kissed you goodbye. I thank God that I will never worry if I loved you enough, because I loved you with every inch of my being. I know this because you were and are so easy to love. It's your love sweet girl that has made me strong, it is your smile that picks my head up off my pillow every morning.
Holding you night after night, looking at your cherub face, I remember thinking...Life would be just unbearable without you. Now I am faced with that terror. There was no warning, there was no sign from God. One minute I held you the next minute you where God's child. Today is day 6 without you and the emptiness is at times just unimaginable. There are so many unanswered questions that a short life leaves you with. Tonight I truly don't understand why you were taken from me, I cherished you so much, I cherished every day and every moment we had. I wanted to laugh out loud with you. I wanted to love you through your first broken heart. I wanted to fight with you every morning about what you were going to wear. I wanted to help find yourself and not only chase your dreams but live them everyday. Today, day 6, I am left with only the memories of the 6 months we had.