tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7556378367719178913.post1896961594889284017..comments2023-04-15T05:02:20.456-05:00Comments on My Sweet Sweet Song: Storm of GriefAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02189194454215770987noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7556378367719178913.post-70928933200650014432012-01-04T15:17:05.170-06:002012-01-04T15:17:05.170-06:00Remind me to share with you sometime about Doug as...Remind me to share with you sometime about Doug asking God to see Aaron's face one more time. It was part of the original manuscript the 4 th or 5 th time around anyway :) but is no longer there. I have it somewhere, on a flash drive or something. It will bless you I think!De'on Millerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14599141539917861219noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7556378367719178913.post-5098160536566978982012-01-04T15:11:44.948-06:002012-01-04T15:11:44.948-06:00You said it honey. It is yours and God's. Whil...You said it honey. It is yours and God's. While it is so universal, our losses are still unique. Even now, I find myself going through all the stages. Maybe the difference now is that it's just not so raw most every day. That doesn't mean there are no longer days that it's not raw and new again. Just hold on, keep on writing, keep on sharing. With Shane I didn't and in the long run and though it took 3 years to happen, I ended up with 13 shock treatments in one months time because of major depression that led to many other things. I also turned my back on God. With Aaron, it was a much different loss and a thousand times harder, but even with the alcoholism of the first two years, I still had God and I let others in. I shared and expressed and wrote and I've been through a bunch of "projects" through many mistakes, etc, etc, but I turned to those God had already placed in my life and somewhat to others who've ventured in since. Whatever it takes, honey, and it always takes him. And I don't mean run out and get drunk, etc., I just mean don't worry about getting THERE. I am not certain there's a THERE here on this earth but as you see, you do experience certain coping mechanisms and you certainly have many to support you and love you for the rest of your life. I could still lose Greg or Lisa in my life or any of the others, but deep inside I know I've been through probably the hardest thing I'll ever go through and that's it I guess. It is the through word, not the over or around. You are never forgotten and we want to share in it with you. When you don't write for a few days, it is noticed, whether it's commented on or not. Love, love and yes, I believe what the first commenter said. No, it's not the same, but I know you feel her there with you at times. She is alive and one day you will join her again. I know at times that doesn't seem possible. In a way, it's like waiting on their birth, like it will never arrive, or even our own deaths, it seems impossible, yet it is for sure! It's coming! Until then, just keep on keeping on. I say that often but there is really no other way to describe it. Other joys will come though, especially since you have Dylan. The joys of marriage will return too. The joys of other relationships. I love my Weston, my Preslee, my Zach, Jesika, Roy, Kayla and Zaiden. Outside of pushing in on my God, Greg and Lisa are my life. My parents were always a huge part of my world, but no, it didn't rip my heart apart to bury them like it did to bury Aaron. You've done one of the hardest things you'll ever do and if you outlive Jeff and Dylan you've done the hardest thing you'll ever do. Yes, you've done it and you are doing it. I love you.De'on Millerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14599141539917861219noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7556378367719178913.post-77249853648186902072012-01-04T08:43:14.059-06:002012-01-04T08:43:14.059-06:00Sweet Summer, on my way home from work yesterday a...Sweet Summer, on my way home from work yesterday a song came on the radio. The moment the chorus came on I heard a sweet angel voice telling me to tell you.....she's here mommy she is with you wherever you are. By the end of the song I was in tears and when I read this blog post this morning I just had to relay the message. I know it's not the same as having her in your arms but Kelsie is here and is touching so many lives. Love you sweet Summer and it is my day to one day cross paths in person so I can give you a hug:)The song goes a little something like this....<br /><br />I'm already there<br />Take a look around<br />I'm the sunshine in your hair<br />I'm the shadow on the ground<br />I'm the whisper in the wind<br />I'm your imaginary friend<br />And I know I'm in your prayers<br />Oh, I'm already there<br /><br />I'm already there<br />Don't make a sound<br />I'm the beat in your heart<br />I'm the moonlight shining down<br />I'm the whisper in the wind<br />And I'll be there until the end<br />Can you feel the love that we share?<br />Oh, I'm already there<br /><br />We may be a thousand miles apart<br />But I'll be with you wherever you are<br /><br />I'm already there<br />Take a look around<br />I'm the sunshine in your hair<br />I'm the shadow on the ground<br />I'm the whisper in the wind<br />And I'll be there until the end<br />Can you feel the love that we share?<br />Oh, I'm already thereSarahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01713504294316370329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7556378367719178913.post-58492529799019477452012-01-04T08:09:12.363-06:002012-01-04T08:09:12.363-06:00I love ya'll!!! My prayers are constant. Mom...I love ya'll!!! My prayers are constant. MomAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com